Fear
My mind is going in a haze. Wondering around but failed to know the reason why. It's starting to go over drive. I started to creating plot on my mind. But not even one is a good thing. I don't want to have any negative thinking but somehow I can't help myself.
My mom told me not to over thinking things since it's not good for me especially with this state of mine. I know it could make my condition get worse but how am I supposed to do about it? They told me to talk about it like some kind of relieve. What if the things not a talking matter? What if after I talk about it, it's only got worse? What do I have to loose? Too much.. I got too much to loose and I can't risk it. Though I know that with this keep going on is already a risk enough. What if I didn't talk about it, it could make me like I used to?
Too many things at stake that I'm not willing to give. But it's already taking too much. What should I do? Too many possibility to consider. I can't be reckless though I already do.So what now? I already making too much mess.
Fear... It consumed my body. I try to overcome the fear. Being used to with it. Till it won't bother me anymore. But how long does it take till I feel numb of those fear? I'm afraid, when I got used to it, I also no longer being able to feel anything. I'm afraid.
My mom told me not to over thinking things since it's not good for me especially with this state of mine. I know it could make my condition get worse but how am I supposed to do about it? They told me to talk about it like some kind of relieve. What if the things not a talking matter? What if after I talk about it, it's only got worse? What do I have to loose? Too much.. I got too much to loose and I can't risk it. Though I know that with this keep going on is already a risk enough. What if I didn't talk about it, it could make me like I used to?
Too many things at stake that I'm not willing to give. But it's already taking too much. What should I do? Too many possibility to consider. I can't be reckless though I already do.So what now? I already making too much mess.
Fear... It consumed my body. I try to overcome the fear. Being used to with it. Till it won't bother me anymore. But how long does it take till I feel numb of those fear? I'm afraid, when I got used to it, I also no longer being able to feel anything. I'm afraid.